Showing posts with label galau. Show all posts
Showing posts with label galau. Show all posts

Friday, 11 November 2016

almanak penggenggam sang hujan

setelah sekian lama menghela nafas di khayangan,
saatnya ku turun main layangan,
setelah sekian lama mengulum rindu mengucap janji,
saatnya ku rebah dalam sembah,

bulir keringat beradu sendu,
tak pelak hadir pula sang waktu.
menggelinjang manja
menggoda.

berdiri bulu kakiku,
menyambut luapan air.
banjir.







Sunday, 13 December 2015

RWD: Cascading Thru the Window Sill..

This afternoon
This foolishly over-flown thought
This ambiguous idea
This idea of you and I

Across the sea.



Tuesday, 4 November 2014

Afternoon Talks: I've got worry, with SHAKY hands.

"MY LIFE IS SO FREAKISHLY PRICELESS, SO DON'T BOTHER THE UPS AND DOWNS AND SHAKY SHAKES!"

self-motivation edition.
trying to train my mind to see the GOOD in every-frigging situation.

hardships may come and go like they even care.




Sunday, 5 October 2014

Menggila dalam Sepersekian Detik.

jerit
ingin aku menjerit
diri bagai terhimpit
laiknya mata menyipit
gurau di ujung jalan 
bercerita kepadaku
gardu di perempatan
memanggil namaku
dunia gila
ya,
dunia gila
terjerembab raga
masuki lembah nista
seketika mengumpat
tertangkap bajing loncat
hilang kesadaran
telanjang
bulat
kaki terlipat
persimpangan jalan
rumah baruku



monday madness
21052007

Saturday, 27 September 2014

dan, lalu, kemudian, hilang.

tetapi kemudian aku hilang.

sejurus kemudian aku bimbang.

namun kemudian dia datang.

lalu kemudian membawaku pulang.



hingga kemudian barisan kata ini tertuju untukmu, KRL sayang.
dan kemudian lari lajulah ke tanah abang.

Monday, 24 March 2014

Dari Coelho, Lewat Brida.. #2

T: Jadi, kalau begitu, apa gunanya mencari jawaban?

J: Kita tidak mencari jawaban. Kita menerima, lalu hidup menjadi lebih intens, lebih bercahaya, karena kita memahami setiap menit, setiap langkah yang kita ambil, memiliki arti yang lebih dalam dari sekedar diri kita sendiri. Kita menyadari di suatu tempat dalam ruang dan waktu, pertanyaan ini sesungguhnya memiliki jawaban. Kita menyadari bahwa memang ada alasan untuk keberadaan kita di sini, dan bagi kita, itu sudah cukup.



Sunday, 16 March 2014

Thanks for Warning Me. :)

Prolog:

going a bit mainstream. I just can't crack his code. he's just so unfair. well, might be me, tho. bewilder me, sun of a beach.

".......... and I still don't know why, WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH?"



Friday, 14 March 2014

Nothing Too-Lose: Sepatu

Prolog:

This god-dammit-i-like-it song from an I- used-to-avoid singer keeps echoing deep down inside my brain, going thru my vein, spreading the same pain. Thank you @tulusm for composing this abyssal depth song reprising my current circumstance. END-JOY!



HOW DO YOU FEEL?

*literally translated*

PIYE PERASAANMU? 

( ( ( C  R  I  E  D   B  I  T  T  E  R  L  Y  ) ) )

Wednesday, 12 March 2014

Are You Mingier Than A Summer Finn?


*opening track*
now playing: Regina Spektor - Us.



Here by, I summed up some noteworthy dialogs, lines, and narrations from the movie that I'd never get bored to watch, might be for the 500th time(s) of 500 days of summer.

Author (((edited)))

The following is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental. Especially you XXX. BEACH.

Narration

  • This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total mis-reading of the movie The Graduate. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief. Since the disintegration of her parents' marriage she'd only loved two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and feel nothing. Tom meets Summer on January 8th. He knows almost immediately she is who he has been searching for. This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.
  • Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. May 23rd was a Wednesday.
  • If Tom had learned anything, it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple Earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is. Nothing more, than coincidence. Tom had finally learned there are no miracles, there is no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now. Tom was... he was pretty sure.




Tom

  • People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated.
  • Why make something disposable like a building when you can make something that lasts forever, like a greeting card.
  • You never wanted to be anybody's girlfriend, and now you're someone's wife?
  • Either she's an evil, emotionless, miserable human being, or... she's a robot.
  • I need to know that you're not gonna wake up tomorrow morning and feel differently.
  • It's these cards and the movies and the pop songs, they're to blame for all lies and the heartache, everything. 
  • This is lies. We are liars. Think about it. Why do people buy cards? It's not because they want to say how they feel. People buy cards because they can't say they feel or are afraid to. And we provide the service that let's them off the hook. You know what? I say to hell with it. Let's level with America. Or at least let them speak for themselves. Right? 

Tom vs Summer

Summer: We're just fr...
Tom      : [Interrupting]
Tom      : No! Don't pull that with me! This is not how you treat your friend! Kissing in the copy room? Holding hands in IKEA? Shower sex? Come on! Friends my balls!

and this one is the one really characterized by often poignant difference or incongruity between what is expected and what actually is~

Summer: We've been like Sid and Nancy for months now.
Tom      : Summer, Sid stabbed Nancy, seven times with a kitchen knife, I mean we have some disagreements but I hardly think I'm Sid Vicious.
Summer: No I'm Sid.
Tom      : Oh, so I'm Nancy...
[Pancakes arrive]
Summer: Let's just eat and we'll talk about it later. Mmm, that is good, I'm really glad we did this. I love these pancakes... what?
[Tom gets up and walks away from the table]
Summer: Tom, don't go! You're still my best friend!

Narrator 

Tom walked to her apartment, intoxicated by the promise of the evening. He believed that this time his expectations would align with reality...  

Summer

  • I just kept thinking..."Tom was right". It just wasn't me you were right about.
  • There's no such thing as love. It's a fantasy.
  • Colour my life with the chaos of trouble. -quoted from Belle & Sebastian in Summer's high school yearbook.







Dialogs

Vance: I don't mean to pry but... does this have something to do with Summer leaving?
Tom: Who?
Vance: My assistant... Tom, everyone knows. Never mind... and the reason I'm asking is because lately, your work performance seems to be... a little bit off.
Tom: I'm not following.
Vance: Okay, here's something that you wrote last week... "Roses are red, violets are blue... fuck you whore."

Taglines

  • Boy meets girl. Boy falls in love. Girl doesn't. (((GIRL, TOO!!!)))
  • This is not a love story. This is a story about love.
  • It was almost like falling in love.

 whoops, we're not stopping there, check out!

WWYD?

What Would YOU Do?




and so?

 

The temporal end?

 thanks, Summer. you made my day. should I aspire you? *toilet flush*


I was kinda being preoccupied with these two characters; Tom Hansen and Summer Finn. They're just, like, indulged of something that is not perceived as real and is not present to the senses. I found this unfeignedly article that I think was really disturbingly provocative. I don't wanna be you, Summer Finn. PERIOD. FULL STOP.


*closing track*
#nowplaying: Regina Spektor - Hero.




Thursday, 28 November 2013

Tuesday, 26 November 2013

Iced Tea Analogy (((DISCLAIMER)))

lemme spark off this post with a tweet I found truly tickling:

23 Nov
NOW this is what I call a pickup line: “Know this: I am addicted to you. I have tasted your mind, and I cannot forget its flavour.”

and it clearly revealed that the teeth marks you left on my skin still felt itchy bitsy spider. (if you know what I mean, here, but well, just nevermind, the bollocks.) couple months ago, I had this heart to heart convo with one of my bests @pemiapeak this lovely chatterbox told me something quite surprising yet despising. OH WELL. but even so, now, by all odds, I have to thank her for her heartwarming analogy. for helping me go stand thru the hardest part of living on my own life. about de-attaching from something I used to be addicted to. from something I've been tempting to taste. about something that I can hardly resist to forget. 

it's the iced tea analogy.


"without question and beyond doubt, we have to know exactly when is the right time to lessen or EVEN stop consuming sugary iced tea. it can cause serious illnesses like diabetes, cavities, or even SEVERE ACUTE ROMANCE SYNDROME. in hence, inhale the negativity, but exhale the positivity. try to manage your emotion and reduce any strong feeling you have. for your own sake........"

and I was like,

  

 *beep sound*


*PLAAAAAAKKK*

 




Monday, 25 November 2013

an unbearable degree of sentimentality: note to self



It's no use crying over spilled milk, so...
Don't cry over spilled milk. 

Do not be upset about making a mistake, since you cannot change that now.







Being upset over something that has already happened and cannot be changed.




Getting upset over certain things, like the spilled milk, it's DEFINITELY not going to fix any-single-stupid-thing.

Wednesday, 9 October 2013

Short Mezzanine Sparks

I remember the day after I woke up & I was heartbroken that he was gone. I just felt, "Ok, so I have to wake up and have another BRIGHT day"

It might be the worst thing has happened in my life, but I should remember some people out there have the worse thing happen in their life.

Then I was thinking, our love was way too meek to seek.

Well, it's just better for us not to be together anymore. You seemed a lot more happier than before. I've drawn away, yet I have to get myself back. Back to the real world. I have my own and so do you. 

The worst lie ever comes out is, "It could be so sweet when someone I (used to) love is happy with someone else."


courtesy of @minddeer - your heart isn't mine but I'm fine :)))



Monday, 16 September 2013

(bukan) balada konspirasi hati.






seketika larut dalam pusaran angin penuh aroma magis bernama gundah gulana.

entah sudah berapa lama sinkronisasi hati dan pikiran tak sejalan.

menimbulkan letupan atomik pertanda keduanya protes.

mereka ingin rujuk kembali.

mereka ingin berjalan seirama.

mereka ingin bergumul melawan keterpurukan ini bersama.

kemudian momentum itu tiba-tiba datang.

menyeruak masup.

menyela.

seperti badai interupsi kala sidang paripurna.

sekali kedip dia hilang.

di pertigaan.

semoga selamat sampai tujuan. tujuanmu paling akhir.

awal dari sebuah akhir.


Wednesday, 21 August 2013

baru-baru ini..

"telah habiskah gaya gravitasiku, sehingga kerap ku merasa kau mulai menjauh dari orbitku?"

hubungan-hubungan pendek membikin kita yakin bahwa cinta itu tidak istimewa-istimewa amat.







mencantumkan penggalan "Larung" karya Ayu Utami.

Wednesday, 5 June 2013

Let's Play Together: The Beatles - Hey Jude

Prolog: been added to my playlist since last week when I was about to explode, and I have exploded already. screwed up. thank you, life!




Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

Hey Jude, don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder
Nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah

Hey Jude, don't let me down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

So let it out and let it in, hey Jude, begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
And don't you know that it's just you, hey Jude, you'll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder
Nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah yeah

Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her under your skin
Then you'll begin to make it
Better better better better better better, ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
Nah nah nah nah nah nah, nah nah nah, hey Jude
 
Writer: LENNON, JOHN WINSTON / MCCARTNEY, PAUL JAMES
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC



Sunday, 7 April 2013

Stalking is The Next Kepo-ing Thing

S T A L K I N G?




yea, right. 
happen to be familiar with this irritably yet indisputable word??

A H A!

let's just stop and think, what's actually hiding behind that shitty word.
starting with looking up that word in some dictionaries.

1. WordWeb
Follow stealthily or recur constantly and spontaneously to..
ex: his secret admirer stalks him day and night.

2. http://www.thefreedictionary.com/stalking
  • To pursue by tracking stealthily.
  • To follow or observe (a person) persistently, especially out of obsession or derangement.
  • To go through (an area) in pursuit of prey or quarry.
* I hi-lited the word OBSESSION, since I'm now dealing with this kind of perpetuated situation which is I totally can hardly bear it. *sigh* *deepest siiiiiiii-ghhhhhhh*

3. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/stalk


. to follow or approach (game, prey, etc) stealthily and quietly
2. to pursue persistently and, sometimes, attack (a person with whom one is obsessed, often a celebrity)
3. to spread over (a place) in a menacing or grim manner: fever stalked the camp
4. ( intr ) to walk in a haughty, stiff, or threatening way: he stalked out in disgust
5. to search or draw (a piece of land) for prey




aaaaaaand, this one. this dazzlingly conspicuous definition!

The word stalker is commonly used when referring to unwanted, obsessive behavior displayed by an individual who has developed a type of obsession with another individual. Stalking behavior is similarly related to harassment and displaying characteristics of intimidation towards another person. However, the word stalking does display different various connotations, specifically in relation to psychology, psychiatry and additionally in some legal jurisdictions and in some cases, particularly legal cases, is branded as a criminal offense.  

However, there have been some issues in defining and similarly in branding the term stalker on different people who seemingly display evidence of this type of behavior. The term stalker was notably first used to condemn the behavior of those individuals who displayed an ‘unhealthy’ obsession with celebrities, defined in a general harassment sense. The type of behavior can additionally be defined in terms of an individual who repeatedly follows, watches or shows any other type of harassment to another person.

Other behaviors include hoarding information of memento’s about the person that the individual has developed an unhealthy obsession with. Generally, the purpose of stalking is to attempt to force a relationship with someone who is unwilling or otherwise unavailable. Unlike other crimes, which usually involve one act, stalking is a series of actions that occur over a period of time. Even though stalking itself is illegal, the actual actions that contributes to the stalking, such as calling, sending gifts and emailing, are in fact legal. Though these particular actions in themselves do not actually cause any harm, if however, they are repeated on a series of time, there becomes a breech or invasion in an individual’s privacy, which can prove to be very damaging and at times has proven to be fatal.
By: Dominic Laden.
taken from: http://www.blurtit.com/q4760768.html


obsess. being obsessed. and to be obsessed with.
which one describes you? you, yes, YOU.




Monday, 21 January 2013

Dialektika Dini Hari

sekian lama tenggelam
dalam temaram
mencoba bangkit
meskipun sakit

senandung lirih
alihkan asa dan rasa
menuntun langkah laju ke depan,
bukan ke belakang

berkecamuk hebat dalam derap langkah menuju fajar
dengan pertolongan para agen rahasia utusan neptunus yang berkuasa di Bikini Bottom
meraih kebebasan
bebas lepas
lebih manis lebih lepas
lebih manis lebih lepas
mengikut perasaan